Life lately

Hi there

It sure has been a few crazy weeks since my last post. Great, but intense!

I’m back at work again, and it feels better than I expected. I feel stronger than I did before Christmas, and I try to keep my therapist’s words sin mind. Sometimes it helps, some times it doesn’t. Speaking of therapistis I got a new one during the time I’ve been gone from here. Someone that has time to give me an appointment once a week for ten weeks, and that will try cognitive behavioral therapy to change my way to think and act if I’m getting a panic attack.

The next big thing that happened is that me and Martin found our dream apartment. Both of us felt like this was the best we could ever get, and placed a high bid right away. We thought the apartment was ours several times, but one other potential buyer placed last minute bids every time we thought it was over. In the end they bid our absolute maximum and we thought it was lost forever. We told the estate agent and seller that we had reached our max and that we couldn’t bid higher than the other couple, but that we could place the same bid. It didn’t take long before we got the call saying the seller wants us to have it. 30 minutes after I got of work we met the seller and signed the papers. By the end of April me and Martin will officially be living together in our dream home.

As if this wasn’t enough to keep a girl’s head busy, I’ve also started school. I really love it! All I hoped for and more than that. We’ve already been through the first two weeks, so in four more I’ll be able to call myself a makeup specialist. We’ve already been asked to help the hairdressing students at school to do the makeup for a photoshoot they’re having soon.

Oh yeah, I also got booked to do the makeup at a fashion show in March! That is really a dream coming true. I loved watching Top Model a few years back, and I always wanted to experience a fashion show but never wanted to walk the catwalk. Now I’ll get the chance to experience it all in a way that suits me.

I think that covers about everything that has been going on the past few weeks. What have you guys been up to lately?

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Gain power from the anger

Hi there,

I wasn’t planning on posting anything today, but right now I just feel like I need to write. That’s what you have a blog for, right?

As you may know I’ve been going through a rough time lately. Without getting too much into details, I got overloaded with stress and things happening around me where I felt like I wasn’t treated in a fair way. I got two panic attacks before Christmas and decided it was time to get help. I felt like I needed someone to talk to, to help me clean up my mind a bit. I got in contact with a doctor that put me on the sick list for three weeks and during the time I was supposed to find someone to talk to. Problem was – everything was closed or they had a waiting time for 3-4 months. I was getting even worse, since calling one place after another saying “I need help” and get rejected every time, that takes a lot of energy. My mother stepped in and started to do the calls for me, as I felt like I couldn’t handle another rejection. It took her days, but today I finally got an appointment. That leads us to where I really want  to go with this post.

I started talking, and for every situation I told her about she asked “How did you feel then?” and the answer usually was “Well, I got mad”. After repeating these two sentences several times she said:

“It sounds like you have a lot of anger, with every right. How do you turn out when you get mad?”

“I don’t. I don’t know how to act when I’m mad. I usually starts to cry instead.”

“Anger is a strong force. You have to allow yourself to be mad, because you have every right to be after all you’ve been through. Use the force to drive you forward, instead of letting it work against you and bring you down.”

Before I walked into that room, I thought I was just a wreak. That I was just feeling sad and had started to get anxiety again. Anger to me is a new feeling, that I’ve never really been feeling before, and that I don’t really know how to handle. But I knew for sure this wasn’t like it was ages ago when I was having panic attacks on a daily basis. This is different in so many ways, I just couldn’t pin point it. After this meeting today I know I will have to work with it differently, but the way is long because this is all new. I guess what I want with this post is to share her words and the way I need to rethink a whole lot of things now.

If you’re treated badly, or have any other reason to be mad, use it to gain power instead of letting it bring you down!

New Year – New Blog

Hey guys!

I’ve been considering getting my own domain for a while now, and as I decided to make the move, I also decided to switch platform for my blog. I used to work in WordPress when I had my old blog for crafting projects, and I liked WordPress more than I’ve done with blogger, so why not do it all at once? All old blogposts are imported to this blog, so feel free to browse.

A downside with the switch is that I lose my Bloglovin followers, so I would love it if you followed me here from now on.

I hope you will join me for the new part of my journey!

Hopes and goals for 2015

Hi there,

It’s a new year, and even though it’s really just a number changing, I like to see it as a fresh start with new possibilities. If you read my blog yesterday you know I didn’t get the best end of 2014, and maybe not the best start since I still have to work hard to get back on track again. But, none the less, I have big plans for the year to come. Many of them will affect this blog in one way or another. Sit back and enjoy the teaser of the 2015 journey.

Education – As you may know, I’m starting my studies to become a makeup specialist the 20th of January. I am overly excited about this, and can’t wait to start. Not sure where this will lead in my career. Maybe it’ll give a start to something brand new, or it will just give me a boost in what I do now, as I get some new input. For the blog, it’s easy to figure there might be way more makeup on here during the year.

Home – As I also wrote yesterday, Martin and I have been looking for apartments during the fall, and since it didn’t turn out then, we know for sure 2015 is the year we will find our place to live and move in together. Even though this is for us personally, I think it will give a boost to the blog as well since I will get a proper working space in our office, and Martin has promised me to build a makeup studio in the guest room (aka my sisters room, as she comes to visit).

Travel – Our adventures has just started! We love to travel and have a few plans for the new year. New York and Bahamas is on top of the list, but there might be some more places that we don’t know about yet. We seem to figure that out over time. Of course you will get to join us through text and pictures on here. Who knows, there might even be a video or two as we’re planning to buy a GoPro camera.

Blog – I really enjoy writing this blog, and I love how it makes me interact with lovely people all over the world. For 2015 I wish to make the blog, and the contacts, to grow even more. Maybe expand to YouTube as I learn more about makeup to share tutorials and get great space for it in our future apartment. I also want to put effort into taking better photos. My boyfriend is really supportive and encouraging, and I know he will do everything to keep me going, as he sees how much this gives me.

I want to make 2015 my year. I say that every year, but somehow it feels like 2015 is the year to be. I’ve found the love of my life. I’m planning to move out. I’ll get to see the world as I’ve always dreamed about. And, what will be of great importance this year, is that I’ve taken the step to an education to find out what I really want to do. It’s time for me to find my way to conquer the world.

Me and Martin before yesterday’s party. Really look
forward for a brand new year with you.

I wish you all a very great 2015!

My 2014

Hi there,

It’s getting closer till the end of 2014. At the moment the toughest part of it for me. I’ve been signed off sick from work because there has been so much going on lately, that my head said stop and caused a panic attack. A feeling I know well enough from my youth to know that it was time to listen and take a break. Unfortunately there are a lot of us that feels the same way, and it’s pretty much impossible to get help at the moment. I told the doctor I need someone to talk to to sort my mind out a bit and help me back on track. 12:th of February is the best so far, and I’m supposed to start working again next week. That being said, when I look back on the year as a whole it has been the most amazing year ever.

I started the year with a new friend, that gained so many more friends all over the world. Life of Anna S was born. I didn’t really know where I wanted to go with it, but it I’ve always loved writing, I love makeup and fashion, and I needed something to keep my mind off from work, because 2014 started the way it’s ending, with chaos at work and in my head. (In between it has had lovely moments though.)

In February my Grandmother turned 70, and so did her cousin that lives in HuaHin, Thailand. What was a better way to celebrate their birthdays than to go visit him in the sun? Me, Grandma, Mum and Sis packed the bags and went for an adventure. It was my first time outside Europe, and it was an amazing experience. Not only did I get to see a whole new culture, but I also got to know family that I haven’t met before, because of the long distance.

March was a pretty calm month. It just came and left, without leaving too many memories behind. I spent a lot of time on the blog, and loved every minute of it. But let’s be honest; if you have all that time of blogging (I posted more than once a day), even though you work pretty much full time, maybe you don’t have that much else to do. I know I didn’t.

Then April came, and turned my life upside down. Our store won a sales competition and was treated with dinner from one of our suppliers. After dinner the rest of the group wanted to go out for drinks, and I followed, a bit reluctant to be honest. My colleague got into a talk with one of the guys at a table nearby, and really wanted to set us up. I was so embarrassed and just wanted to get out of there. But in this gang there was another guy, starting of in the background. As the night went on he moved closer to me and we started talking. The conversation went really well, you could even say great, and by the end of the night he had my phone number and left with the words:

“They say you’re supposed to wait three days, but I think that is too long. You’ll hear from me in two.”

Two days went, and by the end of the day I had gotten a text, replied and a long conversation was started. A few days after the first text, the first phone calls came. We talked for hours in the nights. I think the record is over 7 hours. But finding a time to meet seemed impossible. I worked in the days, he worked a lot of nights. When I had a day off, he hadn’t and when he had, I was working.

In May, the 1:st to be exact, we finally got to see each other again. It started of with a walk to the restaurant Martin had picked (I could really recommend doing that on a first date, because it really broke the ice). During the dinner I got cards with clues of where he was going to take me next, and we ended up playing boules. It was so much fun! The night continued with a long walk, and ended of with a kiss. By then I really knew  this guy was something special.

We kept dating for about a month, taking every chance we got to see each other. Still it was hard to find the time, but an hour here or there just to take a coffee, worked as well. He got to meet my family, I got to meet his. Then the night between 5th and 6th of June he asked if we we’re a couple, and we decided that we were.

June also offered a trip to London with my beloved sister, and the rest of the time I just spent with Martin. Every second I could!

In July it was time for our first trip abroad together. It had turned out that we both loves to travel, and since we both had been working a lot Martin wanted to take me away so that we got some time to ourselves. The trip went to Prague, which was a very romantic city. I think we both fell in love with the city and even more with each other.

August also offered a trip. Me and my sister took a chartered bus to Salzburg to watch a football game. It was a 19 hour ride, and we got time to eat some lunch, walk around the city for a few hours, see the game and then it was time for the 19 hours ride home. It was a great game, and an even better experience. Totally worth all the traveling time!

In September I turned 25. I had taken the weekend before, and the actual day, off because I was planning to have a birthday party. When I got the schedule it turned out I had gotten even more days of than I asked for, which lead to Martin asking:

“Do you want to have a birthday party or do you want to go to San Fransisco?”

I’ve always been dreaming about getting to the states, so the answer was easy. Really easy! Since we travel on standby tickets through Martin’s job we’re not guaranteed our seats and this time all the flights got full the night before the trip. We had to think fast, and ended up in Chicago instead. Something that neither of us regrets for a second! Such an amazing city. The post I wrote as we got home is still one of the most read on my blog. (You can read it here)

In October we took a trip to Madrid, for another football game. This time my sister didn’t come, but I brought Martin as company instead. This was the time of the Lufthansa strike, and we had to re-book our tickets in panic, because we had to get there! This was also an amazing experience.

October was also the month where we started to look for an apartment together, found two perfect ones, was fooled by the estate agent and lost both. It was the month when we spent a night in Copenhagen, because neither of us was feeling good at work and with everything that happened with the apartments, and just had to get away. And it was the month when we celebrated an early Christmas with my sister. (Christmas in October)

In November another life long dream came true, when I finally got to New York City. There is a post  about my feelings about the city here. It’s fair to say I LOVED it, and that I need to go back soon. It was all I could imagine and more than that.

December was when things were getting harder. My close friend at work got a better job offer and decided to leave. I know I will keep seeing her, but it made me start thinking. I realized I want to do more with my life to and with everything else around me (boyfriend, friends and family that hasn’t been feeling really well, the issues with the apartment, changes at work… The list can grow long). Anyway, I decided it was time for me to do something for me. Just me, and no one else. That’s when I signed up for the makeup specialist class, which I know will give me a great start of 2015.

These pictures have all been shown on the blog during the year, and gets to represent some of the most
important happenings in my 2014. The blog, Thailand, Meeting Martin, London, Prague, Salzburg
Chicago and New York

That was my 2014 folks. Even though it seemed bad before I started writing this post, it’s quite obvious now that the year has been awesome. With this post I wish you a Happy New Year, and when I see you again I will let you know more about my plans and hopes for 2015.

Lots of love,

 

Little Christmas Eve

Good evening,
The day before Christmas Eve, is something we Swedes like to call Little Christmas Eve. When I was younger this was the day we got our Christmas gifts from our parents, before we changed that to Christmas Day.
Anyhow, we still always do something together on Little Christmas Eve. Today we ate some of the favorites from the Christmas table, and played Bingolotto. This is a bingo game on tv, that is shown every week, but we only watch the Christmas special. We never win, but it’s taking part that counts, right? And the best part is that I can crawl up in the couch in my lovely PJ Salvage pj, with Christmas dogs on it, that Martin gave to me when we were in New York.
I also got two little gifts. The first one was a Lush gift box that was given to me from the company I work for. Martin was kind enough to drive by my job to pick it up from my boss. The second gift, from Martin himself, was a big bag of my favorite candy.
My last project of the day was to make knäck for tomorrow. Knäck is a sort of candy that needs to be eaten on a Swedish Christmas. Toffee with almonds, and it has become my job to make it every year. It tastes yummy!

Do you have any traditions for this day of the year?

Christmas Inspiration | Gift Wrapping

Hi,

We’re getting closer and closer to Christmas, and the past few days I’ve been spending quite a lot of time on the gift wrapping. This is something I love to do and put quite some effort to every year. Some more advanced than others. I tend to buy quite a lot of gifts, and this year I have my boyfriend and his family to gift to, so there is a few gifts under my tiny tree.

If you’re not done with all your wrapping yet, and needs some inspiration to get going, this post is for you. I haven’t taken pictures of all my gifts, but I have collected some to show. I am not the person that uses one or two different kinds of papers to make it all match under the Christmas tree (it never would anyway with six people putting their presents there). I like to mix match and give every gift their own identity. Enjoy the pictures, and if you’re interested, read my thoughts bellow.

1. I love using miniature ornaments on my gifts. It’s an easy way to show extra effort. If you look carefully at the picture you will also see a golden net under the red ribbon. One of my favorite wrappings this year.
2. I like to save small pieces of paper from other presents to use as a mat under the ribbon. An easy, and cheap way, to give the gift an extra touch.
3. Sometimes less is more. Just a little bit of ribbon, to show the beautiful paper with the reindeer.
4. Again, less is more. Just a simple bow to go with the old fashion Santa paper. 
5. No Christmas without glitter! Sometimes I like to go out of the box and not only use the traditional colours. This year I had no choice when I found that beautiful bling ribbon, and blue and pink where the only colours left.
6. Old fashion is beautiful. Here the traditional brown paper with God Jul (Merry Christmas) printed on it. 
7. Another way to wrap the ribbon around the gift. Still with focus on the really cute paper.
8. I always have to make one very special gift for my sister to open up. It’s tradition! This year with double mats under the ribbon, laces and ornaments. I’m sure she’ll like it.
9. The last gift was actually wrapped about three years ago. It was my contribution to the Christmas gift game. My Grandmother decided this was her gift and worked really hard to win it. She did, saved the box, put a present in it and gave it back to me for my birthday in September the following year. For Christmas I filled it up again and gave it back to her. We’ve been doing this ever since. It’s getting a bit nagged, but that’s part of the charm.
What do you think? Do you have a favorite from the ones above? Or a nice idea to share? 
Let me know in the comments! 

Christmas tag

Good evening!

I’ve been catching up a bit on my favorite blogs these past days and was inspired to do a Christmas tag. I’ve seen a few different tags out and about and have picked my favorite questions and mixed them as some answers might explain an answer further down in the tag. Hope you enjoy it!

Do you have any Christmas Eve traditions?

In Sweden Christmas Eve is actually the big day. For my family it means that we gather with grandparents, aunts, uncles an cousins in either my family’s house or at my grandparents, just before 3 p.m. That is the magical time of the year when Donald Duck’s Christmas starts. It has been a tradition for generations, and a change in that is a very sensitive subject for all Swedes. During the show we eat all sorts of cookies and mulled wine or a sort of Swedish Christmas root beer. (Or coffee for Grandpa).

When the show is over we talk for a bit during the last preparations for the dinner is being made. Our Swedish Christmas smorgasbord contains pickled herring, salmon, eggs, ham, meatballs, chipolata sausage, potatoes, red cabbage, Jansson’s temptation (a gratin of potatoes and anchovy), mackerel in tomato sauce, brussels sprout… The list goes on forever.

After the dinner, Santa usually comes to visit for a few minutes before it’s time for the Christmas gift game. (Read about it in this post if you haven’t heard about it before) During the game we of course eat all the candy we’ve made.

When the game is over and all presents are opened, it’s time for the rice pudding, hoping to find the almond! I tend to find the almond every year and always win the glory and a box of chocolate. (Last year my grandmother put a second almond in the pudding to give everyone else a chance too. Guess who got both the almonds? Yup, that was me!) Then we just sit for a few hours and talk until everyone is ready to roll home.

Christmas seems to be all about the food, but we do have a lot of fun with all the loved ones as well. I’m sure you all know the drill!

Do you open your presents Christmas Eve or Christmas morning?

As I just wrote about, Swedish Christmas is on Christmas Eve and that is the time when I get, and give, my Christmas gifts from Grandma and Grandpa. I don’t get all of the gifts then though.
On Christmas day it’s just me, my parents and my sister and brother. This year my boyfriend will join us too, since he has become a part of the family now. In the morning everyone is laying their last hands on the gift wrapping, maybe writing a last gift poem and such. For lunch/early dinner we eat the left overs from the Christmas Eve dinner and as soon as it gets dark outside we gather around the Christmas tree to give each other our gifts.

Do you like to stay in your PJ’s, or dress up for Christmas?

For Christmas Eve I always dress up, but Christmas day is usually PJ’s all day.

Which do you like better, Christmas Eve or Christmas Day?

This one is impossible to answer! I love Christmas eve with everyone around me, and I love the quality time I get with my closest ones at Christmas day. But ever since I was a child there has been something special with Christmas Eve, and I do get to meet family that I don’t see every day so maybe a little advantage for Christmas Eve.

Have you ever built a Gingerbread house?

I did sometime when I was younger. My mother built it and we helped with the decoration. Me and my sister have been talking about building one for years, but we never seem to find the time with everything else that we want to do.

What do you like to do on your Christmas break?

It has been years since I had a Christmas break. Working in a store, Christmas is the most busy time of the year. But since I’m not working this Christmas I look forward to just relaxing, watching movies and I really hope for some snow to play in!

What’s your favorite Christmas meal or treat?

This is a really tough one, but I do love the Christmas ham so I think I’ll have to pick that. Or my Father’s toffee.

What’s your favorite holiday movie?

This one was easier! The Grinch! No Christmas is complete without watching it at least once.

Have you ever made a snowman?

Yes, of course! I love building snowmen. One year I built about 20 tiny ones. I wanted to build the whole soccer team that I support.

Do you have a favourite Christmas memory?
I think my childhood Christmases over all. When my parental Grandmother and Grandfather was still alive, my cousins’ parents were still married and everyone was gathered at our house. At that time when Christmas was only magic, because you weren’t aware of all the stress that it can bring as well. I LOVE the preparations and Christmas as it is now, but there’s still something special about Christmas as a child.

Favourite Christmas gift?
I’ve gotten so many lovely Christmas gifts through out the years, but an all time favorite is the season tickets to my football games. It’s a gift that lasts for a whole year and bring loads of memories for a lifetime. Also, it’s one of my father’s favorite gifts to give, for the same reasons, and as happy I am to receive the gift, I am to see the joy in his face as he hands it over.

What tops your tree?

Well… I guess this is where most people answer a star, or an angel, or a spire. It used to be a star. But this year my dad helped decorating the tree.

What’s the best part about Christmas for you?

I think that the best part of Christmas for me is everything Christmas is supposed to be. With all the tittle-tattle of Christmas gift, the preparations, the food, all family close and the natural joy in everyone’s eyes.

Hope you found this post interesting. If you have any special Christmas traditions you’d like to share, I’d love to hear about them in the comments below.

Exciting news

Greetings people!

Today I’ve got some really exciting news to share. For a while now I’ve been feeling I need to do something else than just work work work. Something that will be a step forward good for my personal development. I found that close to where I live there was an education that I would love to take part in. Last week I got an okay from my boss to have one day extra off every week, and yesterday a confirmation of my acceptance showed up in my mail box.

The 20th of January I will be attending my first lesson on a six weeks education to be a diplomaed Makeup-specialist. Overly excited about this, and really wished it would start tomorrow! I really look forward to do something that I love doing, and see what this education will bring for my future career.

Now that I’ve shared these lovely news I will get back do my happy dance that has been going on for a while now!

Ciao!

Bekräftelse is Swedish for confirmation

When everything happens at once

Hi there!

 

My head is a real mess right now. There is so much going on I don’t know where to start.

Me and M found an appartment that we really want, and yesterday we brought my parents and sister to see it. They liked it too and saw all the opportunities that we did. We did think we would be the only ones there, but the estate agent had invited other potential buyers as well. Made us kind of nervous to see how big the interest was. We booked an appointment at the bank this morning to make sure we would get the loan we need. They said okay, so we placed an offer and now we just need to wait and see if they accept it. Probably won’t get any answers until the end of the week. It will be a constant stomach ache until we know. I don’t know how many times I’ve decorated that appartment in my head.

Tomorrow we’re going to Madrid, something that we’ve been looking forward to for months. What we didn’t plan was that Lufthansa would strike today and tomorrow, which means our flight is cancelled. In panic we booked new tickets last night, and today M has been trying to get the money back for the first tickets and make sure our tickets home are still valid, even though we will cancel the first tickets. Still not sure what will happen since no one could answer, and didn’t call back as promised. When he tried to call back they had closed their phone service. I like being spontaneous, but when things are planed and the time is limited I just want things to go as planed! But it will work out one way or another.

As this wasn’t enough to mess up a girl’s mind, I’ve also been thinking about education and there are things going on at work that I’m not sure what to think about. I really want to study to makeup specialist, but I need to know what happens with the appartment, and what happens at work so I know when it’s a good time to start. It’s just six weeks, and only one day in school, so I should be able to combine it with my job during the time. But still, need to fix that first! Why does everything always have to happen at the same time? It’s close to impossible to think clear at the moment! A good night’s sleep on that one?

See you soon, from another place in the world!