Gain power from the anger

Hi there,

I wasn’t planning on posting anything today, but right now I just feel like I need to write. That’s what you have a blog for, right?

As you may know I’ve been going through a rough time lately. Without getting too much into details, I got overloaded with stress and things happening around me where I felt like I wasn’t treated in a fair way. I got two panic attacks before Christmas and decided it was time to get help. I felt like I needed someone to talk to, to help me clean up my mind a bit. I got in contact with a doctor that put me on the sick list for three weeks and during the time I was supposed to find someone to talk to. Problem was – everything was closed or they had a waiting time for 3-4 months. I was getting even worse, since calling one place after another saying “I need help” and get rejected every time, that takes a lot of energy. My mother stepped in and started to do the calls for me, as I felt like I couldn’t handle another rejection. It took her days, but today I finally got an appointment. That leads us to where I really want  to go with this post.

I started talking, and for every situation I told her about she asked “How did you feel then?” and the answer usually was “Well, I got mad”. After repeating these two sentences several times she said:

“It sounds like you have a lot of anger, with every right. How do you turn out when you get mad?”

“I don’t. I don’t know how to act when I’m mad. I usually starts to cry instead.”

“Anger is a strong force. You have to allow yourself to be mad, because you have every right to be after all you’ve been through. Use the force to drive you forward, instead of letting it work against you and bring you down.”

Before I walked into that room, I thought I was just a wreak. That I was just feeling sad and had started to get anxiety again. Anger to me is a new feeling, that I’ve never really been feeling before, and that I don’t really know how to handle. But I knew for sure this wasn’t like it was ages ago when I was having panic attacks on a daily basis. This is different in so many ways, I just couldn’t pin point it. After this meeting today I know I will have to work with it differently, but the way is long because this is all new. I guess what I want with this post is to share her words and the way I need to rethink a whole lot of things now.

If you’re treated badly, or have any other reason to be mad, use it to gain power instead of letting it bring you down!

10 thoughts on “Gain power from the anger

  1. This is exactly why you have a blog! I love this post. My reaction to getting angry was always that I got emotional, then that took over, then I gained nothing from the situation. It’s a hard cycle the break but it’s definately gotten easier. Recognising a pattern in how you react is a huge step and it will get better. Reading this post reminded me that it’s not a bad thing to talk about something difficult you are dealing with in your life :) thank you xx

    • Thank you so much! I think a lot of people get emotional instead of mad. It’s time to take our place back! 😉 I’m really glad it could give a little reminder :)

  2. Hey Anna! You’re seriously brave for sharing that with us, so thanks for letting us in. I hope writing about it helps too. I’ve dealt with anxiety off and on and it can be super frustrating! It sounds like you have a good doctor who can recognize that it may be more anger-related. My gymnastics coach used to tell us, whenever we got sad about a boy or school etc., not to get sad but to get mad instead. Her point was the same as your dr, that anger can be better used to propel you forward. Hope everything starts looking up soon! Let me know if you ever need to talk :)

    • Thank you, Chelsea! I’ve always been very open when it comes yo my anxiety since I know so many people experience the same thing, and so many of them are ashamed of it. If me talking about it can help just one person, for just a moment, it’s worth it. And all this was an eye opener to me, so why not share it? :) Thanks again for a lovely comment!

  3. That’s what’s blog is for. I’m so amazed, by how you shared your story. I mean I couldn’t have the guts to do such a thing. To be honest I loved the quote at the end. I feel like I try to do exactly the same. For now I’m not being angry that often, but once I am, I’m trying my best to gain power for sure.
    I loved this blog post. It’s amazing to read others experience, even if it is the worse one. I hope you’re all better now. And if not, I wish you all the best!

    Mary x

  4. Wow Anna thank you for sharing this side of yourself with us! That takes a lot of courage! I am so glad you are getting help and that your first session really helped you! I love that last line you write because it is so true! Take that anger and to fuel yourself to do something great! You can do it girl!

    <3 Shannon
    Upbeat Soles

    • Thank you, Shannon! I don’t mind sharing at all, if it helps and inspires one person just the slightest it’s totally worth it. <3

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